The first year of teaching is truly a roller coaster. Each teacher’s first year experience is so unique, yet I feel a strong bond to all those other first years out there who have persevered through April. Here is a glimpse into some of my peaks and valleys.
April 3rd (pre-institute)
…sure, I am nervous about next year. I’m worried I won’t have the tools or experience when August 3rd rolls around. I’m worried that I won’t be able to give my students the education they deserve, and that I won’t live up to the expectations my school, TFA, and I have for myself.
…get ready to go on the most exciting and important journey you have ever been on. Get ready to make a difference in kids lives, every day, and get paid for it.
…I was just informed I will be the math teacher at my school next year. It is starting to sink in, everything. I am so nervous. Feeling overwhelmed.
…I have to believe I can do this. I have no idea how, but I must.
The mythical institute is is upon me. 1/5 of the way done. The truth is, I am really enjoying it. Sure I am tired. Sure I am stressed at times. And I know I’m going to get more tired and more stressed now that teaching is starting. But…
I am learning so much! I am surrounded by incredible, inspiring people. I am going to become a real teacher on Monday. Unbelievable.
It’s over. Five fast, furious, blurry weeks.
…it wasn’t the hardest thing I have ever done. This worries me a little bit. I never had a lesson totally bomb. I had some tough moments, but I never felt totally out of control of my class. That could just be the case when you have only 9-12 students in your class. Ready or not, here we go.
…I wish I could have been better for these amazing kids. They need a great teacher, they deserve nothing less.
Have courage. You will get there. Keep trying. Don’t get bogged down by fear of failure. Focus on 1 lesson, 1 task, 1 moment at a time…give that moment your fullest attention.
Be courageous. Laugh and be yourself.
August 2nd (Sunday night, before the first day of school)
Stay positive, stay positive, stay positive. You will be alright, and so will your students.
To be continued…